July 02, 2005

Just another story

look through my friendster friends' profile. got 55 friends. but among all this people.. how many are really my friends? some are my cousin. one is my boyfriend. one is my boyfriend's sis. hmm.. and the rest? i dun think they are my friends. i think we are just friendy acquaintances. fine. and so i conclude. i got no friends at all.

i am really very disillusioned by this whole thing of friendship. how many times have my so-called friends meet up. and how many times was i informed of it. fine if it is cause you are so closely knitted in a group that i find it hard to fit in. and so that is the reason why i was not informed. i dun know. if people like to form groups so much.. how come my so called friends and i failed to form a group of our own? (note. i am not against any of your so called groups. in fact, i just think that my life is so super screwed and i am such a freaking ass hole that no one bothers to come and form a group with me being in it.) no. it is not you guys fault. perhaps is cause i am spending most(in fact all) of my time with either nic or my family members and so i neglected you guys and that is the reason why i have got no friends. and so ultimately.. it is just me and my own faults.

perhaps the only person who understands me now is jiemin. cause she once blog about such things in her blog as well.

been reading alot of people's blog. my so called friends' blog. and how many times was i involved in any of your so-called meomorable time. the only person that perhaps bother to acknowledge having me as her friend is jiemin. the rest? i may appear on your tagboard. but how many of your meomories are spent with me? like i say none. and like i say.. it is my fault.

entirely my fault. seriously i wonder who are really my friends. and who are just my friendly acquaintances. or perhaps.. people who i just say hi and bye with.

God, tell me wat is this whole thing about frens. and what exactly constitutes a friendship. and do i actually have friends? perhaps i do. confirm one friend. God. and perhaps jie min. laureen perhaps. the rest? i really dun know. i just know that sometime being too far apart destroy friendship. and i was so gullible. i still thought our friendship will be able to last forever.well. i am disillusioned.

Elsa Chen
21st Sep 1986
cedar pri/cchms/mjc/ntu-nie
loves:
--her family and darling!
--her darling friends!
--sleeping and eating
--blue, pink and light purple
--going for tours overseas!




hmm..based on priority!!hee.. =D you can help to fulfil some wishes by getting it for me for my birthday?!*grinz*
- world peace
- people i love to stay healthy and happy always
- little or no quarrels and unhappiness at home!!
- mum never to have to worry over financial issues!
- 2nd class honours, preferably upper class!!
- happy with darling!!
- go usa/europe with my parents!!
- get the 5k annual stipend!
- strong friendship with friends
- lose weight
- catch up with friends!esp my sec/jc mates!

- car license!!
- portable harddisk that is PORTABLE with as much memory as possible
- that citadel and saboteur game that i am addicted to!!
- any 1 of the many many reflexes game i play in settlers! they are so fun!
- watch movies with darling FOC!!
- new clothes and shoes!
- a new leather watch!!
- lasik operation! to get rid of having to wear specs/contacts!
- a small sling bag for gai gai and a bag big enough for school
- a shopping spree in HK or Thailand!!
- a pair of birks?

Wenhui

Nuha

Laureen

Xiao Mei

Brenda

Melissa

Sharon

Terelle

Nadia

Elroy

Serena

Satiish

Baoling

Dimas

Jiemin

Xue Qi

Yunqing

Quek

Cindy

Binchuan

the Hong Xing gang

Lee Mei

# Artist: Cascada
# Title : Everytime We Touch